Music

On this page you can find some of the favourite songs that I've created with Suno. Please feel free to check them out, and if you like what you hear, let me know!

Album - The Ascent. A biographical retrospective of an awakening journey.

Instrumentals:
The Fog - Capturing the feeling of living an unexamined life - where its hard enough to keep ones head above water. paycheck to paycheck. no checking the horizon. Living in reaction.

Is This It?  - A track exploring the feeling of having material success, but losing a feeling of meaning. The beginning of wondering - why am i doing this? is there more to life?  

An Opportunity from the Past - at this time I had opened myself for something new, and I was looking for more meaning in my life. And I had resigned from trying to find meaning in my professional work. almost immediately I was called, called to an opportunity related to my past that seemed to promise the meaning that i was searching for. 

The Courage - This track explores taking a leap of faith, and disrupting my whole life, leaving large parts behind, to pursue this opportunity. Incidentally, at this time I listened to an audiobook titled "the courage to be disliked" which drastically informed my philosophical development over the following months.

Running up the Mountain - This track captures the feeling of endless energy, power and momentum i felt i had after the move, the change of scenery, the change of philosophy, and the physical actual change in mental energy I had access to after being treated for severe, chronic sleep apnea. Suddenly i had boundless energy and i was taking on everything at once, 14 hour days in the office, with gym sessions, and running. i was in full David Goggins mode just powering forward.

Man on Fire - This track explores the shadow side of the previous - All this energy was burning me up and cooking me off, and i was reaching critical stress levels, and yet i didn't know how to stop. i had this constant buzzing in my nervous system and i was frantically pursuing "progress" at any cost.

Permission to Rest - Suddently - I realized that i needed to rest. I tried to learn how to rest without guilt, and i got myself into the trap of "rest with intent" where the rest was only being taken to enable more action.

Sustained Emergency - This track explores the following period of relative stability - resting just enough to keep going with "the mission". There was a lot of work to be done, and it seemed to be somethign that would take some years, but it was a also a crisis situation to resolve. This song is also called (Forged) because the intensity and difficulty of this period felt like it was forging me into a stronger, more resilient man. 

Parasympathetic Resistance - My fiance was living in another city at this point. this Track explores how when i would visit her, my body would be almost overriden into a parasympathetic (rest and digest) dominant state just by her presence alone, however my mind would feel guilty about slowing down, resisting the rest and never being able to just settle and disconnect, always looking for more work to be done.

Step into the Void - This track explores the feeling of stepping into something completely unknown, as a massive leap of faith, to see what is on the other side. 

Single:

I am - a Response to "Is this It" after years, realizing that I am it, I am of it, and It is me, there is no difference, and the profound sense of peace that comes with the understanding of the principal "as above, so below"